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My Dear

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There once was a time,
Where I thought you to be kind.
To be nice,
To be caring,
To be decent.

We both know time proves a lot of things.

Time proves lies to be false,
Truths to be true,
Fantasies to be nothing but a dream.

Time proves those hastily spoken words
To be nothing but a lie.
For that, I cannot blame solely you.
Though they passed your lips first,
So too are mine guilty.

While you could have had the decency to wait,
I should have had the sense to run.

After all,
I never did really see your wings.
I wanted to.
I so badly wanted to.

I wanted to fly with you,
Bury myself in your feathers,
And forget the sight of those unforgettable wings.

Yet those golden wings would always overlap,
No matter how hard I tried.
I couldn’t let go of that radiance.
Her light crept into everything we did,
And overshadowed everything we felt.

Then I finally began to fall,
To place my trust
In your brown I was beginning to see.
I finally trusted you to catch me.
To keep me safe
And to hold me.

I should have known better
Than to have let you near my wings.

You left me in the darkness,
Crippled and lost.

What hurt ripped into me more?

The crash into oblivion?

Your gentle hands
As they clawed the feathers from my back?

Did you even see
What you kept taking from me?
Did you even catch a glimpse?
Or was I also shadowed to you?

Would my wounds be so deep,
If you simply hadn’t walked away?
Ignored me at each turn
And denied my existence to a fault?

For a time I could not forgive.
Wounds were still fresh
And I could still not find my way.

I gave you opportunity.
I gave you time.
Now I give you forgiveness.

You were misguided into silence.
While I was angry and sad
About answers that never came.

Time proves a lot of things,
We both know that now.

I am no longer angry.
I am no longer sad.
My wounds have scabbed.
At last I’ve learnt to treasure myself
And to fly on my own.

There once was a time
I thought you to be decent,
To be good,
To be kind.

Maybe, just this once,
Time will prove me right.
It's been a long time since I wrote anything like this. And it's admittedly been a long time coming since I've really needed to express this for awhile. This is about my ex and I, we kind of rushed into a relationship, him for whatever reason, and me because I was trying to force myself to move on from a person I've been in love with for a long time now. It wasn't a relationship based off of feelings of being in love, and just as I was starting to truly care and fall for him he walked out on me without a word. No "I don't really like you anymore," no "I met someone else," nothing. Just a lack of replies and no eye contact or acknowledgement that I existed when I was around. I was already in a bad place and that on top of uni had me in the deep end for quite a bit.
I've been able to get out of that place over the last year by working my butt off at my job and distracting myself in my time off. I'm still not completely out of the water, as is probably noticeable in my art block, but I'm much better and much happier.
If you're wondering, I haven't heard from my ex in over a year and a half now, it's never my way to hold a grudge. I forgave what he did a long time ago now. It still hurts a little, yes. But I'm easily able to move on and live my life. By writing this I wanted to portray a part of our relationship, how I was hurt by what he did, and how I hope he has grown into a better person & won't make the same pain inducing mistakes with someone else.

Please tell me what you think of this and how I could make it better. I've only changed things three or four times, so it's not perfect in my eyes by any means.

Thanks for taking the time to read something which is very close to my heart~ <3
As always, Enjoy the Art!
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