Thank you! dA ID

As it says, thank you all so much! It was a little while ago that we rolled past the 10,000 mark, but due to stress, uni work, and general art block, I hadn't been able to think of anything for this milestone...Then today I received a lootcrate! So I pinned my hair up, put on my favourite wig and recorded a video. Awhile afterwards I decided to take advantage of the fact that I wasn't avoiding a camera for once.
It really isn't much, and I think you all deserve more, but at least it gives me another opportunity to say how wonderful and amazing I think everyone is and that I love absolutely everyone from the bottom of my heart. (Perhaps ironically, this is also my 250th deviation)
I'm in a really rough patch in my life at the moment, so I don't know when I'll be able to get back into the swing of things.

Actually, I'll be honest. I don't like to worry or bother people so I'll often pass off my own well-being as being fine when it's really not. But I want to be truthful to both you and myself for once. I've been dealing with anxiety for the past couple of years and thankfully it's much better than it once was. However, over the course of this year, I think I've fallen into a deep depression. I've come to this conclusion since I've lost motivation to do much, I don't really want to do anything, even things that I enjoy, life seems hopeless and I cannot find much hope in it however much I try. And even though I know those last two aren't true, I'm unable to convince myself of that fact. Also when I'm not trying to live in the moment and not think about things, I find myself becoming extremely saddened. All of this has only gotten worse, particularly over the past couple of months. It's affecting both my studies and the rest of my life in a major way. Now that I've finally admitted this to myself, I'm going to get help for it. I refuse to simply stand by while precious friendships I've had for years crumble before my eyes and I push those I love away by my lack of action.

I hope that everyone is at least okay in their lives at the moment. And if you're not, then I hope that you're able to reach out, whether it be a professional, a family member, a trusted friend, or a stranger with a good ear. Take that first step when you're ready, it is not your fault, you are not a hindrance to them and they will want to help. Now it would be nice if I could listen to my own advice.

Also may our thoughts go out to Ryan and Matt, previously of Cyndago, as well as the family of Daniel, all of whom now have a large void in their lives where Daniel was, and which won't begin to heal for some time.

I'm sorry for all of the sad things today.
Remember to Always Enjoy the Art.